You know how this blog is called "Focused on the Positive"? Well, I suppose I'll let the cat out of the bag, I am not ALWAYS positive. For example, here's one thing I am not looking forward to, and I mean, for along time I have dreaded the arrival of this day. I am turning 29 again at the end of the month. (AKA 30)
I thought I was dreading this day because it means I am old. But I recently realized, I don't think 30 is old. I've been married for a long time, I have a couple of kids. I am ready to be 30. I think what I am scared of is the idea of monotony. The realization that the next several years will probably consist of taking and picking children up from various activities, making lunches, soccer games, girl scouts, etc. No more spur of the moment ideas. Everything will be scheduled, pre-planned, routine, etc. The so-called fun and exciting chunk of life is ending, being replaced with the minivan years. Ugh.
Here's what I mean. All of the exciting questions I had when in my 20's, who am I going to marry? where are we going to live? what are our kids going to look like?, have mostly been answered. I am grateful for the stability of that knowledge. Now I have a pretty good map of what the next several years are going to look like, so it's just a matter of living life. I hope that makes sense in a non depressed way. I am not depressed about the future, I just feel like I already know what lies ahead.
So here's what I want to know, how do I deal with this positively??? How do I look forward to this? How do I change my perspective? If you have suggestions, please let me know. It's coming up soon... We'll see how I actually handle this special day. I'll keep you posted.